Thursday, April 12, 2012

Literally falling off my body

There are little victories we have in life that may seem, at least on the surface, as little things that don't really mean much.  Then there are those victories that we know are nothing to take for granted.  I had that happen to me today.  I was getting dressed for work this morning and, as is my usual, was running out of time trying to figure out what ensemble to put together.  I always tell myself that I should plan better the night before.  Do I?  Uh, that would be a big fat noooo!  This morning was no different.  I grabbed a pair of pants, the same pair of pants I wore in the picture of my body assessment before starting Optifast.  I jumped into them, pulled them up and they fell right down past my hips.  I tried again, not registering what was going on.  I just thought I was tired but when I did it again, they fell down a second time.  Then I realized, oh dear Lord, the reason they don't stay up is because they are too big on me now. 

Now, just to give you all some perspective, my weight had gotten so much before Optifast that I was busting out of the biggest size they offered at plus-size stores (the one I always went to was the Avenue where their biggest size was a 30/32).  I am saying this on here in a very public way because I want to express the place I've come from.  Nothing was fitting any more and I was even resorting to ordering things online because I knew there were bigger sizes available.  It would make me sad, but that's the place where I came from.  No matter what I did, for several years, I just could not lose weight.  In fact, I was just gaining.  So, to have clothes literally fall off of me right now is a miracle on earth.  God has supremely blessed me by leading me to a place where I not only have a program that can help me get healthier but also the right place within myself to not sabotage efforts and just be as free and as willing as I need to be through this process.  I am in such a grateful space!

6 comments:

Jennifer said...

Way to go, sweetie! What super, awesome news! I'm so happy for you. :-)

Kathy said...

Thank you Jennifer. I'm pretty happy, too! It's a pure joy I haven't felt in a long time.

optifastblog said...

It's such a great feeling when clothes are too big. I loved every minute of the process of taking armfulls of too-big clothes out to the garage for some in-the-future garage sale! Congrats...

Kathy said...

Thank you! I have decided to start bagging up clothes that are now too-big for me instead of doing alterations. I've already got plenty to get rid of to make room for smaller sizes. Yay ;-)

Truth Teller said...

Reading your blog helps me get thru this. I look forward to this day in my life. I appreciate your honesty very much.

Kathy said...

You ARE going to get through this. If I have been able to do it, I know you can, too! The first days were very, very hard for me and I didn't think I'd make it through but here I sit 80 pounds lighter just after two months. You're not alone.

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