Monday, December 17, 2012

Weekly weigh-in & question of the day

I lost 2.8 pounds this week.  I'm happy with that since it was first full week back on food after stopping the Optifast product.  I feel like I'm starting to get into a groove, although I'm still adjusting to the right kind of food to have.  My body just can't handle things that are too rich.  And that phrase "too rich" is completely relative because most anything is too rich after having had shakes for so long.  I know I'll get into a good pattern soon, though.

As I mentioned a while ago, I want to seriously delve into the emotional side of this weight loss journey.  It's just as important for me to heal emotionally as it is to heal physically.  Let's face it, a person doesn't get to weigh 417 pounds at the first Optifast meeting if there isn't some emotional stuff going on behind the eating.  So I have a few sources of questions I'd like to dive into, some from the Optifast binder and some from other sources.  I'll call these segments Question of the Day.  I have a friend who used to work at one of our sister high schools (she no longer works there but is still a friend of mine) who used to send me an e-mail at work and titled it Question of the Day.  So what I'll do is pose the question, then answer it.  I think it would be great if readers answered them too, if they're so obliged.  You can either do it in the comment section, send me a private e-mail or do it in your own journal.  No matter what, this is about healing and leaving the overeating and the desire to overeat in the past.  Here we go!

Question of the Day

What makes you think you are ready for change now?  In other words, why is now different than before?

This is hard to explain in words, but there has been a shift in my life ever since the day I decided that I was sick and tired of the obesity plaguing my life and decided to go on Optifast.  There was an internal shift, as though I had crossed the line and could never return to the place I've been.  Things were definitely different than any resolve I might have had in the past.  This time I was willing to do whatever was put before me.  I mean, that must be pretty obvious if I was willing to do something like go on a liquid diet for months on end.  Seriously, isn't that the epitome of willing to do absolutely anything?  I didn't want to be regarded is that morbidly obese person who was suffering from diabetes, who was breathing heavy in the corner, with a smile plastered on my face that masked the true pain that exists beneath the weight.  As I move into this next phase of my weight loss life, I know without a doubt that I am not only ready for change, it is imperative for me to continue moving forward.  My life is changed and I never imagined it could feel so good.  Here I am, a person who never exercised voluntarily, and I work out practically every day.  Not only that, I am often the one to get other people to do it.  I like exercising with other people, by myself or either one.  It makes my body feel good and that makes me feel good.  It's a part of my changed life now.  Things are different now because I want this more than anything else and I am surrendering to a process I don't always understand but one that I know is a gift from God.

Okay, now it's your turn to answer the question ...


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