Why I haven't posted in a few days

I have been sick!  Terrible coughing, wheezing, sneezing, fever ... just yuck.  Even my cats meow at me when I get in a coughing spurt.  So, against what I really want to do, I have been staying put in my house to get better.  I have to go back to work on Monday after two weeks off so I'm trying to be in the best shape I can.  I know if I'm not feeling better by then, I can stay home but I complete have cabin fever.  I went out this morning to get more chicken soup because I just wanted to see the sunshine.  I could have called someone, I have a few friends that live nearby, but I wanted to feel like a human being for a few minutes.  Between that and checking my mail, I felt incredibly winded.  It's so hard when you feel bad and still have to deal with the issues of being overweight - it makes things a lot more painful.

Speaking of being overweight, I have a person I was a friend with on Facebook that constantly put in posts about "stop being fat and lazy ... get off the couch and move" or "I don't get why fat people can't just eat better and put the fork down".  In fact, she talks about nothing else.  She had gained some weight while she was pregnant, nothing more than about 30 pounds with each pregnancy and now has this holier than thou attitude because she was able to lose it.  So I finally hit the unfriend button.  I was sick and tired of her being so judgmental about something she doesn't know.

Yes, we all have weight issues, but there are some, like me, that this is so much more than calories in/calories out.  I think most people reading my blog know what I'm talking about.  There are deeper issues at play here than just choosing that food over this one, exercising these many days to burn these many calories, or having to lose 30 pounds versus 200 pounds.  What about the person that feels compelled to eat the whole bag or container?  What about a person that has a "relationship" with food because it comforts them, just like alcohol and drugs does to other sorts of addicts?  I finally said to myself, "Enough!"  I just don't need toxic people in my life.

In a few weeks, I will be starting the pre-op classes for my gastric bypass surgery.  I ordered a few books off of Amazon to learn more about other people's experiences in an in-depth way (love, love, love Amazon by the way - got one of my books for a penny).  There is a lot online about gastric bypass, but I wanted some deep info about how they cope with having surgery, how they deal with the massive amount of weight that is lost and especially about the emotional feelings that will undoubtedly surface.  Several of my friends have been urging me to turn my blog into a book one day about my experiences.  After reading these books, I can completely see how that might be possible.  It seems a lot easier than I had imagined it would be.  I'm not saying I will write the book, but never say never!